When I Grow Up… I want to be a model

I used to aspire to be a model but by the time I decided to try out for America’s Next Top Model, I was one year too old and, as it turns out, one inch too short… SMH at my darn procrastinator ways and lack of height… How in the hell can someone with three foot long legs be TOO SHORT??? How do I know they’re three feet long? When my son was three feet tall, I measured my legs by his height as he and I stood side by side. But I digress…  By the time I started watching ANTM, they were on Cycle 3 when Eva Pigford won. I rooted for her cuz she was the shortest of the women and I loved her look, style and attitude. She reminded me of ME! She reflected ME and I wanted to be like her! But it wasn’t until I’d passed the age requirement that I finally got around to trying out. Disappointed, I prayed that if it’s meant for me to follow this dream that a door will be opened. I went to a local modeling school (Barbizon) to see if my son had potential to be a model and while I was there, I signed myself up as well. We attended one class or session or whatever it was called. I can’t remember and I don’t recall paying anything for it. It might have been an Open House type deal. Anyhoo, me and my procrastination didn’t get the ball rolling to follow through with that! Then Nick at Nite came up with She’s Got The Look! It was ANTM for women 35 and over! I believe when it started, either I was about to turn 35 or I’d just turned 35… After watching their first cycle, I started to apply for the second one. This time I didn’t follow through because I didn’t have sufficient support. I was a single mother with two school aged children. Not wanting to disrupt their lives by sending them to spend that time with their father (who lived two states away) not to mention the loss in income by me not being at work, I decided against applying. That and the fact that if I were chosen to be on the show,  the producers wanted to use my image in any variation any way they saw fit, and I had no say in the matter nor would I be compensated. Now that I’m married and still fitting the requirements for SGTL, I could try again but that “using my image” thing makes me pause.

I may try again to become a model but until then, I’ll keep my other dream alive (ya know, the best-selling author one) . 🙂

Peace.Love.Happiness.

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