Thanks Lea

Wow!  I didn’t realize I was invited as an author.  I’m honored 🙂  I really have nothing to say other than Thank You!  that seems too short though…LOL

so here’s my favorite piece that I’ve written to date: Clarity

I been waitin for the sky to fall
cus everything feels right
spent so many days in darkness
that I just can’t stand the light….

two steps forward one step back…slow progression to my present leaves me longing for the past…there is a comfort in the knowing that I’ll never make it past…Dreaming of a brighter future, cus the cards I got are bad…and if I hope for no progression, I’ll be happy where I’m at…But here we go, I get this blessing and I’m looking for the catch…cus nothin ever comes this easy, so I’m waiting to fall back… see, self-sabotage engrains itself into my very soul…cus if I sabotage myself, then I can say it’s what I chose… Holding on to what control I have, makes me feel in control… like I control the shovel, diggin, while I’m stadin in the hole… cus aint nobody gonna lay me down, I put myself into the ground, and say I made it so…But my pride is like a frenemy, and I gotta let it go…

cus…
I been waitin for the sky to fall
cus everything feels right
spent so many days in darkness
that I just can’t stand the light….

Spent so many days in bondage, that my freedom feels like chains… Like a slave with walkin papers, handin masta’ back the reins…longing for familiarity of cracking whips and chains….cus without the weight of bondage, feel like I might float away… it’s so easy to stay grounded when you’re livin on your knees… pray for deliverance, but really it’s more habit than belief… it’s been so long that I’m accustomed to the wanting and the need… But if I didn’t give up hope, I’d have my hope taken from me… so how do I begin to walk upright when I been weighted down?… how do soldiers give up fighting, when the horns of peace resound… I am in post-traumatic stress from the blessings I receive…P.O.W to the war between belief and disbelief…My comfort zone is under siege, and there’s no seals to save the day…I am a prisoner of my own desire to remain a slave…

cus…
I been waitin for the sky to fall
cus everything feels right
spent so many days in darkness
that I just can’t stand the light….

~Teddi B
“Writers are Forever”

Don’t Lie (1999)

Don’t lie to make me happy.

Don’t lie to make me sad.

Don’t lie even though

The truth will make me mad.

I’ve heard your lies before

From you, and others, too.

But what you fail to realize

Is what harm your lies will do.

They raise my spirits one minute

Only to be dashed by reality.

I’m sure you have better ways

To use your creativity.

I hope and pray that today is the day

That you will tell me no more lies.

The truth is all I ask for

And it requires no alibis.

Please no more fibs, little white lies,

Or sweet words to appease me.

You’ll soon believe that telling the truth

Is all you need to keep me.

©1999 lmg (revised ©2009 Lea Mishell)

Afternote: This was my writing from TEN YEARS AGO. I was no doubt inspired by some people who shall remain nameless even though for the longest time they proved to be my muses. I pray that, like my personal relationships, my writing has IMPROVED!!! lol

Be Happy (2001)

“Be Happy”

Be happy in the arms of your lover, cuddled up close, feeling each other’s heartbeats.

Be happy alone, free, and independent.

Be happy that you woke up and lived to see another day and thank the Lord that He made it possible.

Be happy that someone you love is in a better place.

Be “sweaty, sex-funky, happy as you wanna be” happy. (thanx 2 Jill Scott)

Be “don’t worry, be happy” happy. (thanx 2 Bobby McFerrin)

Be happy to be you.

Be happy that you are loved… by me.

© 2001 ej (010801)